After the days of an unforgettable vacation...

I have a cousin...wanna know what's her name?...she's ate Flor. I call her ate because she's older than me by 5 years. Ate Flor is naturally pretty, smart, witty, may sense pag nagsasalita, gorgeus (naks), responsible and she's intelligent,,,that's why she's studying at PLM (Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila). I think she's one of my favorite cousin. Kasi nagkakasundo rin kami sa maraming bagay.

We celebrated our family SUMMER '07 at Davao. Halos lahat kami, Villanueva side, sumama. Kaya super happy kami, grabe. At the same time, debut rin ni Ate Hannah, kaya ininvite rin kami ni Tito Gundi para maging special guests sa debut. Like 18 candles, 18 roses...marami pa. Citizen na talaga sila ng Davao City kaya sila rin yung naging guide namin sa pag pasyal pasyal dun. Nung debut, siyempre lahat kami kanya kanyang ayos. Grabe, ang sarap talaga nung mga foods dun. At yung hotel, Mt. Apo view pa. One time, Ate Flor asked me to accompany her to the washroom. Nagmamadali siya talaga and she looked so faint. When she reached the sink, she vomitted. Nagtaka lang talaga ako, sabi niya masakit lang raw talaga yung katawan niya. After the debut, we went to Samal beach...ang ganda dun. Nakatapak pa nga ako ng starfish eh. Nang pauwi na kami, nasa jeep palang kami, Ate Flor looks so exhausted na talaga. She keeps complaining on Tita na masakit yung katawan niya. Kaya diretso na kami sa house na tinutuluyan namin.

Days after, bumalik na kami sa Manila. Kahit medyo malungkot kasi super ganda talaga dun. Sulit naman, durian (huh?), pomelo, lansones,,,ang rami naming nauwi. Then one day we received a phone call galing ke tita. Nasa hospital c ate. Then she needs to undergo an operation. Kailangan i-remove ung gall bladder niya. Kaya all of us prayed for a safe operation. Nang natapos na ung operation. Akala namin solve na lahat. Akala namin wala na yung sakit. Pero few days after, she was brought to the hospital. Kasi me pain parin siyang nararamdaman. Her doctor conducted tests para malaman kung ano talaga yung sakit niya. We prayed a lot and waited for the result na wag naman sanang malala.

Then that day came...ang sabi nung doctor, hindi pa raw clear at sure, pero nakakita sila ng signs...ng bone cancer. Everybody was shocked pero di pa naman kami nawawalan ng pagasa. Kasi sabi nung doctor, mag coconduct parin sila ng tests para malaman talaga yung totoong sakit niya. Everybody was hoping and praying na sana hindi totoo yung sinabi nung doctor. Then it came, final result na talaga, and she's positive with bone cancer. Di namin akalain. Lahat kami nanghina, we were not expecting that kind of result. Then the doctor said, she needs another operation, brittled na raw yung bones niya kaya kailangan kumuha ng bones sa ibang parts ng body niya. All we have to do is to pray,,,eto na to e, kung pwede lang sana baguhin, ginawa na namin. After the operation, successful naman but the doctor said na me posibility na hindi na siya makalakad. We tried to force ourselves not to cry, pero di talaga namin kaya. Too young pa si ate, at the age of 19,,,hindi talaga akalain ng mga doctors na magkakaron sila ng ganung case. In that hospital, hindi lalagpas ng 5 ang nagkaroon ng ganung case.

I keep questioning myself, bakit sa lahat, siya pa?. I keep thinking about the words "lucky" and "happy". Sa tingin ko ba, pwede pang mangyari to?. Though, maraming negative ideas ang pumapasok sa isip ko. I'm not still losing hope na dapat ay gumaling na siya.

She keeps on telling to Tita na she can't take it anymore. The pain and the feeling to be bedridden. But binabawi rin naman niya. Kasi she knows that behind of all the pain she's experiencing, nandito parin kami. Giving all of our support. Happy naman kami kasi hindi niya nakakalimutang mag pasalamat. Sa lahat, sa help and sa support.

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I know it is hard to accept. Na pagkatapos nang masayang family vacation na yon,,,few days after...nangyari naman eto. Hindi namin yon expected. All I have to do is to support her and pray for her. First and foremost, is to trust her.

Marami talaga kaming kalokohan, taking picture together. Kagaya nung pic sa taas. Yan ang pinaka favorite kong pic namin, Sands with our shadows. Kaya I'm keeping all the happy days with her.

We really love her and everybody knew that she's a worthy and nice person. I already accepted that all of these were already irreversible. But don't let it impugn hopes and interdict happiness. Just remember the words "hope" and "faith". Surely, beautiful and decorous blessings will come in exchange of all the supports we gave. Kaya pagaling na siya. Pag gumaling siya, libre namin lahat :D